Time to Mosey

[Khatovar]

Man, I don't even know what to say. I've been a part of this place for 7 years, it's been home in a lot of ways and I didn't want to just disappear without speaking a little peace.

Not a lot of people really know me, that's been by design. I have chronic depression, social and general anxiety and it's pretty much made me a recluse for the past decade. These forums and occasionally the IRC channel have been my primary social outlet since I joined. When I speak about this being a community, it's always had that deeper connotation to me. Multiboxing was the only thing I enjoyed doing and this place became my tribe in a way. A lot of these posts and guides I made, these scripts I wrote, these toons I leveled were lifelines - the only thing that got me out of bed a lot of days. These little moments of feeling fucking awesome because of something I figured out or learned or because of something I wrote were often all I had to keep my head above water.

Over the last couple years I've had a really rough time, but I've been slowly trying to pull myself together. I quit smoking cigarettes, started working out regularly and lost about 80lbs. I made an effort to put myself out there by opening up to Facebook and journaling and all that. This Christmas I took the last step and accepted I needed anti-depressants. The last few months have been a long, slow reboot for me.

But anyway, during these last few years, I've also been debating if it's time to move on from Dual-boxing. I haven't multiboxed in years and didn't even buy the last WoW expansion for my main, so I don't feel I've had much to offer in quite a while. The landscape of multiboxing has changed over the last few years and especially in the last year I find I'm not doing much more than banning spam registrations and being the mean one who locks everything. Not that I'm complaining in the slightest, it's literally what I volunteered for, but at this point I feel like I'm no longer needed and it's ok for me to move on. It's time.

So, I didn't want this to be a melodramatic life story, I just wanted to say thank you to all of you for being my peeps over the last 7 years and giving me a place to belong and feel like a valuable person. I also wanted to take a sec to apologize for any points where I was needlessly harsh or rude. I've tried to keep myself professional and fair but that's not always easy when you're fubar in the grey matter.

I gutted my site and archived my multiboxing stuff, but I don't have plans to delete anything, so there shouldn't be any impact on anything here. I'll check back here a bit if anyone needs anything, but I guess this is adios, pard'ners. It's been great to play with you and I wish you all the best.

~Kate

[Lax]

Thank you Khatovar for everything you've done for this community! We could always count on you to keep these rowdy folks in check. You will be missed!

[ebony]

you be missed kate you always been the one to put a end to the drama.

Depression and anxiety is not great and after i been dealing with it for a good 7 years i know how you feel i been told that infarct i might not even have depression as its from hypothyroidism and this has been overlooked for 7 years, or though am still going though tests. but it seems this is what i have been dealing with anti-depressants always made me feel a lot worse. i hope you still come back to say hi from time to time


take care and i hope everything goes well for you.

/love Jennifer

[Ughmahedhurtz]

It's been nice having you around, and my thanks for helping to make this place one of the best communities on the internet. Best of luck and God speed.

[CDNProdigy]

I sincerely hope you find or have found what gives you hope and enjoyment. Thank you for your significant contribution to the this great community Kate!

[JohnGabriel]

Take care!! Good luck in your travels.

[MiRai]

Noooooooo, Khatovar! WHO WILL THE HOTKEYNET USERS TURN TO WHEN IN NEED?

Seriously, though... It's too bad you're leaving.

[Norrin]

I am sorry to see you go too Khat. I never really go to the chance to get to know you but you will be missed for sure.

[luxlunae]

Thanks for your work over the years and especially the interact-with-mouseover ("khat fishing") tutorials. Best of luck out there in the AFK world.

[Kicksome]

Khatovar you are the best! I'll miss you and the way you handled yourself so eloquently here - especially when it came to troublemakers.

That's really great to hear about all the progress you made in RL - it's very inspiring. Best of luck and don't be a stranger!