Hey guys. Fascinating convo on BNI and such. I started my first toon on 1/31 and currently have 2 toons on separate accounts in BNI.

So, here's the thing: BNI is the mega of megacorps in a way. The number of people that they have is ridiculous. What does this mean? You aren't going to get your hand held and you are going to have to learn by making mistakes. I actually had similar experiences as you though in that I went into some retard fleets with 500-1000 people and lost pretty ships, but worse yet I lost implants. After not getting SRP, I finally figured that I was going to have to figure things out on my own. For me that meant heading out to Jel to embrace my inner carebear a little and grind an 8.0 standing so that I can setup my own clones. During that time I've been ganked a bit, but I have learned an enormous amount about strategy, tactics, and survival in Eve...and I didn't have to leave BNI to do it. Point is: To some extent you have to be responsible for yourself because nobody else is looking out for you.

So, before today I have kept JCs in Barl to do my PI, been chillin in Jel/Ation, and now that I have some skills and experience, I'm going back down to Sendaya. More than that, with Barl being officially abandoned and HERO taking Catch, things will be interesting. So, come back down to Sendaya...or not, but this game is not like many others. You'll just want to set some short and long term goals that are fun for you.