Khatovar
06-07-2015, 01:34 PM
Man, I don't even know what to say. I've been a part of this place for 7 years, it's been home in a lot of ways and I didn't want to just disappear without speaking a little peace.
Not a lot of people really know me, that's been by design. I have chronic depression, social and general anxiety and it's pretty much made me a recluse for the past decade. These forums and occasionally the IRC channel have been my primary social outlet since I joined. When I speak about this being a community, it's always had that deeper connotation to me. Multiboxing was the only thing I enjoyed doing and this place became my tribe in a way. A lot of these posts and guides I made, these scripts I wrote, these toons I leveled were lifelines - the only thing that got me out of bed a lot of days. These little moments of feeling fucking awesome because of something I figured out or learned or because of something I wrote were often all I had to keep my head above water.
Over the last couple years I've had a really rough time, but I've been slowly trying to pull myself together. I quit smoking cigarettes, started working out regularly and lost about 80lbs. I made an effort to put myself out there by opening up to Facebook and journaling and all that. This Christmas I took the last step and accepted I needed anti-depressants. The last few months have been a long, slow reboot for me.
But anyway, during these last few years, I've also been debating if it's time to move on from Dual-boxing. I haven't multiboxed in years and didn't even buy the last WoW expansion for my main, so I don't feel I've had much to offer in quite a while. The landscape of multiboxing has changed over the last few years and especially in the last year I find I'm not doing much more than banning spam registrations and being the mean one who locks everything. Not that I'm complaining in the slightest, it's literally what I volunteered for, but at this point I feel like I'm no longer needed and it's ok for me to move on. It's time.
So, I didn't want this to be a melodramatic life story, I just wanted to say thank you to all of you for being my peeps over the last 7 years and giving me a place to belong and feel like a valuable person. I also wanted to take a sec to apologize for any points where I was needlessly harsh or rude. I've tried to keep myself professional and fair but that's not always easy when you're fubar in the grey matter.
I gutted my site and archived my multiboxing stuff, but I don't have plans to delete anything, so there shouldn't be any impact on anything here. I'll check back here a bit if anyone needs anything, but I guess this is adios, pard'ners. It's been great to play with you and I wish you all the best.
~Kate
Not a lot of people really know me, that's been by design. I have chronic depression, social and general anxiety and it's pretty much made me a recluse for the past decade. These forums and occasionally the IRC channel have been my primary social outlet since I joined. When I speak about this being a community, it's always had that deeper connotation to me. Multiboxing was the only thing I enjoyed doing and this place became my tribe in a way. A lot of these posts and guides I made, these scripts I wrote, these toons I leveled were lifelines - the only thing that got me out of bed a lot of days. These little moments of feeling fucking awesome because of something I figured out or learned or because of something I wrote were often all I had to keep my head above water.
Over the last couple years I've had a really rough time, but I've been slowly trying to pull myself together. I quit smoking cigarettes, started working out regularly and lost about 80lbs. I made an effort to put myself out there by opening up to Facebook and journaling and all that. This Christmas I took the last step and accepted I needed anti-depressants. The last few months have been a long, slow reboot for me.
But anyway, during these last few years, I've also been debating if it's time to move on from Dual-boxing. I haven't multiboxed in years and didn't even buy the last WoW expansion for my main, so I don't feel I've had much to offer in quite a while. The landscape of multiboxing has changed over the last few years and especially in the last year I find I'm not doing much more than banning spam registrations and being the mean one who locks everything. Not that I'm complaining in the slightest, it's literally what I volunteered for, but at this point I feel like I'm no longer needed and it's ok for me to move on. It's time.
So, I didn't want this to be a melodramatic life story, I just wanted to say thank you to all of you for being my peeps over the last 7 years and giving me a place to belong and feel like a valuable person. I also wanted to take a sec to apologize for any points where I was needlessly harsh or rude. I've tried to keep myself professional and fair but that's not always easy when you're fubar in the grey matter.
I gutted my site and archived my multiboxing stuff, but I don't have plans to delete anything, so there shouldn't be any impact on anything here. I'll check back here a bit if anyone needs anything, but I guess this is adios, pard'ners. It's been great to play with you and I wish you all the best.
~Kate